We often go through periods of life crisis. Be it with work, passion or consumption. Things that worked before, just don’t work the same anymore. The rhythm feels off. There is a rift in what is our reality and what we now believe. That creates existential dread. The feeling of not being able to cope with life, live life the way it was intended. In the 3D reality, we often find ourselves in consumerist society where buying equates to happiness. But buying nothing also doesn’t guarantee us any more happiness. What is one to do? It’s such a conundrum. Humans are not designed to live off junk be it in food or what we wear or buy for our homes. But living life uprooted from our 3D reality is also not the way. We must live with purpose and purpose means to do something that adds value to ourselves or to the greater good. So what is the sweet balance?
Understand that if you’re stuck in the same boat as me, it’s a matter of shifting perspective. It’s a matter of finding your ikigai, your raison d’être, your reason to be. Maybe for the longest time it was to buy things that filled your home and made you happy and that’s okay, but now you may want to create something with your hands. When feminine energy is suppressed, it manifests as excessive buying to fill the void; or excessive anything really, be it talking, consuming, not doing. Creative energy flows through doing which is the feminine or the yin energy. You must create, beautify, add value to your life to balance out the masculine energy of balancing structure, ambition, and active pursuit of wealth creation. If either is imbalanced, things feel devoid of purpose and when purpose is missing, life feels meaningless.
So, you don’t have to make your hobbies your profession if a corporate job is what pays your bills, but accept that there is more to life than just earning and consuming- it’s to create. Learn a new skill, learn painting, wood working, jewellery making and don’t quit just because it doesn’t flow initially. With practice and efforts things will flow, and you will feel full of purpose and meaning again. It’s a matter of doing things more than just wanting it badly.