What do you do when the very paradigm of your reality starts to shift and what made sense with your identity, doesn’t do so anymore? It’s like you believed in something yesterday, and today it is completely not your belief anymore. Your soul is confused, your mind is scattered. You are torn. This may be common with spiritual awakening and the dark night of the soul. However, dark night of the soul is more so with transformation of your baseline frequency in which you operate and the transformation requires giving up on your beliefs and values. But what I am talking about is something that doesn’t quite have a name yet.. it’s the redesign of your spiritual belief system, the very core identity of your being.
Let me explain. When you have a spiritual awakening, you most likely go down a rabbit hole of understanding the secrets of the universe and the metaphysical and magical world that is hidden from us. That makes you go through the ebs and flows of your beliefs and values, perhaps after you are awakened, as during spiritual awakening, there is a crisis of faith. But you move on from it with the new belief system that you are learning and absorbing and your core values and beliefs are evolved. However, every true spiritual person, comes to a point in their path where they are so deep and are not grounded to the 3D reality. That clicks a question in their head, ‘wait a minute, is this who I truly am?’ and most likely, the answer is a ‘no’. You have become so far from the version of yourself that embarked on this journey, that you don’t recognise yourself anymore. Your identity has shifted. Your very fabric of being has changed.
But all changes are good, right? Especially when they make you be the best version of yourself? I thought so too, until I came to the same fork in the road. I was at a point in my life where I didn’t relate to the person I was when I was in the thick of spirituality. I felt removed and demotivated in life. Things didn’t make sense. The purpose was lost. And purpose can evolve with the journey too, however, with me, I just became so devoid of it, that I didn’t know what my purpose was. Organised religion called me and so did the lack of conformity. I could be this and that and that and the choices were often far and many and I wanted to do it all, and try it all, that I was in decision fatigue.
The only solution that I thought of this dilemma, is to be grounded. It’s simple really. You are in your higher chakras that you don’t realise you are not rooted in your 3D reality. And we are believe it or not, 3-dimensional beings in a 3-dimensional body and in a 3-dimensional world. Our soul chose to have a 3-D experience. We must honour it by staying grounded and rooted in the everyday reality. Ask yourself, why is it that you are so caught up in healing your wounds and trauma all the time? When will you be present in the now? When will you live for now? Staying in the head too much, be it to heal traumas or wounds, or having higher chakras opened all the time, to get guidance, is good in small doses.
We have to be grounded in reality. And this is not my primary problem, believe it or not, I was too much in the 3D. I felt devoid of my connection with God. Being too divine and too devoid of divine is where the problem lies. And maybe you did a whole 360, who knows? Maybe you were always meant to be the person you were when you first started on your journey and this journey taught you to be wiser and experienced beyond your normal path, which is great. But now, you have done a whole 360 and want to go back to being the person you miss. And that’s okay too. Being who you are is flexible and change is constant, however, changing to be the person you once were, aka balanced, is definitely a shift in the identity of your soul, your beliefs, your values and even your lifestyle. These things take time to change. And maybe you find a happy middle somewhere. You choose your own path, who knows? It’s okay to be uncomfortable in the unknown. It is okay to not know everything. I know that’s a hard concept to grasp for spiritual people, but trust in divine timing. You are not lost, you are finding yourself.